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Showing posts with label mind n thought. Show all posts

Monday, January 7, 2013

January is my Month

*wallpaper asal nyomot dari google

My first posting at new office. Yes it is, new year new office :) Iya saya udah gak bekerja di perusahaan multinasional Korea lagi, sekarang udah jadi abdi negara. Dan saya sudah officially ikut menuh-menuhin ibukota dengan pindah kosan ke daerah Benhil :D

Kata orang, buat yang sudah terbiasa kerja di swasta dan kemudian pindah ke birokrasi itu beda banget. Saya gak sampai merasakan culture shock yang gimana-gimana, kalau dibilang beda ya emang beda. Mungkin bedanya buat saya kayak sate kambing dibanding nasi padang. Mana yang lebih enak? Ya itu tergantung sudut pandang dan selera orang. Mana yang lebih baik buat saya? Tentunya yang gak bikin saya darah tinggi dan kolesterol ya :D

Tapi karena saya baru sebulan lebih dikit disini, ibarat kacang ijo itu saya ibarat baru disiramin air biar lembab, belum berkecambah (kok dari tadi perumpamaan pake makanan terus). Yang jelas kerjaan jauuuuuh berbeda sama yang dulu. Dulu berkutat sama barang elektronik dan sekarang hukum, perundang-undangan, MoU, dsb :D
Can i cope with it? Harus bisa dong ah, belajar dulu neng! :)

Soal gaji....dont ask please, cpns gitu loh :)) *ketawa miris*. Yang penting ada kesempatan buat beasiswa S2 nantinya :) Aminin yang kenceng biar saya bisa dapet beasiswanya, AMIIIIIIIIINN...

Ada yang mau tahu resolusi tahun baru saya gak? Ada dong please #kesian. Saya saja gak tahu apaan xD. Mungkin saya bisa nyontek resolusi salah satu teman yaitu "menggantengkan diri", tapi itu jelas gak mungkin.  Atau mau jadi pahlawan super dengan kekuatan mengendalikan kemacetan Jakarta. Asik kayaknya kalau resolusi barusan itu bisa saya capai :D

But it is possible, isn't it? Bukan di tahun ini, bisa jadi di tahun depan, atau depannya lagi. Intinya resolusi saya itu bukan dibatasi tanggal 31 Desember 2013. Ya walaupun resign dari kantor lama itu salah satu resolusi tahun kemarin sih, heuheuheu.


P.S: Seorang teman baik pernah bilang, ngapain juga untuk memulai suatu resolusi yang baik atau menghentikan kebiasaan buruk harus nunggu awal tahun? :)

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Mikirin Negara

Hari Sabtu kemarin saya ke nonton Skyfall dan ke Gramed, beli 2 buah buku. Skyfall gak perlu diceritain atau direview lah ya. Coba cek aja di imdb atau rotten tomatoes. Kalo rating saya pribadi sih skornya 4/5.

Yang pengen saya posting disini adalah buku yang saya beli. Satunya tentang sejarah Tionghoa di Indonesia yang merupakan kumpulan tulisan wartawan Republika. Saya lumayan takjub baca buku ini karena banyak sekali cerita sejarah yang tidak saya ketahui. Ada cerita tentang tokoh Tionghoa yang jadi tokoh pergerakan di jaman kemerdekaan Indonesia tapi namanya tidak pernah ada di buku sejarah. Ada juga cerita tentang Republik Lanfang di Kalimantan Barat yang saya gak pernah dapat di pelajaran sejarah di sekolah, tapi ketika diketik di google ada beberapa source bacaan tersedia. (Pengarang buku sejarah yang diajarkan di sekolah itu terlalu diskriminatif sama golongan minoritas dan terlalu java-is apa ya?)

Saya sih pada dasarnya suka belajar sejarah, walaupun suka mixed up antara tahun kejadian ini dan itu. Dan gak terbatas sejarah kuno bangsa antah berantah gitu, sejarah Indonesia saya juga suka. Ini bukan berarti saya orangnya susah move on karena suka sejarah *abaikan kalimat ini*. History is fascinating. Dan sisi plusnya, it's educative.

Satu buku sudah khatam dibaca. Lanjut buku selanjutnya, which is buku yang ditulis Bpk Adhyaksa Dault. Nah gara-gara baca buku ini nih saya jadi googling keterangan yang ditulis di buku, yang menyebutkan ranking Indonesia diantara 16 negara lainnya yang disurvei. Apa yang disurvei? Tingkat korupsi. Dan hasilnya? Nih lihat saja di gambar.


Ujung-ujungnya kalau sudah baca buku semacam ini adalah...mikirin negara. Akar permasalahan yang bisa bikin negara kayak gitu apa, atau apa yang bisa dilakukan biar bisa mengurangi atau bahkan memberantas hal semacam itu. I used to have imaginary dialogues in my head while and after reading book or such articles like this. But usually these imaginary dialogues finally fade away and washed off of my head. I feel like a jerk sometimes, drown in this "mikirin negara" utopia without doing something real :(

Saturday, May 21, 2011

What Are You Still Doing Here?

Got this from here. I brutally copy-paste-ing it here, just in case you're indolent to click the link ;)
It would not perfectly fit your stories but i guess parts of her writing are true.


Dear You.

I had a brutal crush on you but I said to myself I wouldn't do anything about it. When I heard about you and another girl though, I thought it's now or never. So I simply walked to where you were and since then there has only been you.

You make me laugh so much and you awakens every butterfly in me. You whisper sweet words in my ear and I want to hug you all the time and you tell me you want me to. You giggle when I give you a thousand kisses all over your face and I remember you said I'm the prettiest girl in town. I don't think about what's happening or will happen, I'm just enjoying every moment with you.

But in every relationship we have - with girls, boys, friends - sooner or later we argue. And suddenly it all feels so fragile.

What will happen now?
How much does he like me?
Will this end what's between us?
Wow, there's so many things I still don't know about him.
Will he hurt me?
Will he say things that makes me cry?
If I stay now, will he take me in his arms if I get sad?
If I go now, will he call me tomorrow?
Gosh, WHY do I have to be so emotional?
Does he think I'm too sensitive?
Is this about what he said about things going so fast?
Wait - it was "so fast", not "too fast", right? Damn. I can't remember.
What does he want me to say when he tells me that?
But if he meant it in a bad way, why would he also tell me he doesn't want to be with anyone else?
I hope that part wont change now when we argue.
Is he as scared of all those feelings as I am?
I wish I was a mindreader.
What was we even arguing about?
Oh, I remember. Are we really having an argue about that?
Well, I guess this learns us that both are really stubborn.
I don't want him over there. I want him to be closer.
Will he reject me if I ask for a kiss instead of talking about whatever we think different about?

I really want you. I really like you. But I don't tell you that tonight. Instead I'm doing what I know is wrong - I'm walking away, I'm going home. Because even if we're having an incredible time, I don't really know you and your thoughts and if you think "us" is happening too fast instead of so fast, I don't want to hear it tonight. Each day I want to have you one more day so me liking you as much as I do is really freaking me out.

And to all of you whose hearts are aching by liking someone and not doing anything about it - what are you still doing here? Go tell them, go take a shot, go fall in love!
Sometimes you have to give life a push and hope that it's the right time and place and that both are ready for what may come. The worst thing that can happen isn't even that bad - if he/she doesn't feel the same at least you will feel awesome about telling them how special they are.
But if everything goes well, it can be amazing.

Remember though - your heart will ache anyway, because you're so scared to screw it all up and the feeling you get by the thought of losing something great is almost as awful as not having it at all.

Lots of love to all of you!

-tsf.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Everyone Has A Good Side?


Though he's lazy and lack of intelligent, he still has a good side, which is his loyalty to his bestfriend.
I believe that everybody has a good side. Even a conman has good side too, whether it shown only to his family or his pet.

*ya gak, 'res?*

Friday, August 20, 2010

Have You Ever Meet The Angel?


First, i want to ask. Do you believe in angel existence? If yes, how do you imagine them?
Fair white, gorgeous in shape, has pair of wings and a hallo above the head?
Well, that commonly angel shape that been dictated on book or movies.

But, have you ever concern? Angel may come in any form.
Maybe they come in a shape of old couple selling roasted corns. They do nothing specific for you. You just coincidentally saw them and feel the warmth. They are devoted and helpful to each other. And you are touched by their spirit to stand on their own feet and do not burden anyone at their old age.

In another time, you could see the angel's existence from the love of caring mom. She didn't mind to pick you up home in a hot midday. And she cooked you her best meal, one of your favorite dishes. She doesn't even complain when her children make fun about her motorbike-riding style, which is very slow. That because she is careful of herself and someone who rides with her.

Or once, it comes in a big hug of your good friend. When your heart is broken, she lends you her shoulder to cry on. Not only cheers you up, but she also holds your arms to help you stand up. Though she has her own problem, she doesn't hesitate to let you trash on her with your story just to makes you feel better.

Next time, the angel shows up in a smile of little toddler. She lightened up your day with sincere smile, a very sincere one. Whereas your mood is bad because of one thing and another. And somehow you feel so empty until you want to run away. And your tears are nearly pouring down. Then the little angel come just with one smile. It feels like she was telling you something. "Hey, an angel is just smiling at you, be happy".

So people, if you meet evil in many shape, don't worry. Angel come out in many more shape. You just have to realize when they're next to you ^^

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Random Thought

This two months i feel so uncreative. No interesting posting and my mood is also gloomy gray. At office, i do nothing productive, a lot of daydreaming everyday. Kinda lost my passion, even in preparing or planning something fun. Where is me? *sigh*.

Okay, though this blog doesn't hit numerous reader, but it doesn't matter. I still like to write bout everything happens around me. My traveling journey, films or musics that i love to share with, my personal thought, etc. So random personal page, eh?

Everything i left back there, shouldn't influence me now, rite?
Hope soon i can stand still on my feet again and get my passion back. Not only mood, but yes, passion indeed.

You cannot move forward if you keep watching your back. #myrandomthought


P.S: Do you know what snowdrop means?

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Sad Face

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eye,

I'll Stand By You - The Pretenders






You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?
~Anonymous~

Friday, May 7, 2010

Does Love Hurt?

Suddenly....just suddenly, because i have nothing to do at work, then found these pics randomly.



Of all pains, the greatest pain,
Is to love, and to love in vain.
~George Granville~

Why is it that we don't always recognize the moment love begins, but we always recognize the moment it ends?
~Anonymous~

You can close ur eyes to things u don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel.
~Anonymous~



I don't miss you and you alone, but I miss you and me together.
~Anonymous~

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.
~Anonymous~

P.S: about the title, is there anyone who want to answer? ^_^

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Carpe Diem

yes do like same i do when i bored alot alot because of lesson and other things
GET A CAMERA GO OUT AND CARPE DIEM :D

- rizka - wrote:
> Gut, danke
> merhaba
>
> i'm fine, but just get bored because of the same routinity i've done...
> do you have any idea how to refresh my mind?
> :D
>
> Mithi wrote:
> > terime kasih
> >
> > i am okey still alive at least :D i was in another city for some research it made me so tired ..what about you i hope everything is ok
I woke up this morning normally at 6.45, then ironing my clothes and then took a bath. While i was taking a bath, suddenly this kind of random thought came into my mind. It was "Carpe Diem".

CARPE DIEM

Meaning

Usually translated from the Latin as 'seize the day', or sometimes as 'enjoy the day, pluck the day when it is ripe'.

Origincarpe diem

The origin source for the Latin phrase is Horace - in Odes Book I:

Dum loquimur, fugerit invida
Aetas: carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero

which translates as:

While we're talking, envious time is fleeing: seize the day, put no trust in the future

Then i remember bout an old email which was sent by an old friend. A Turk who studies master degree in Germany. We met in social networking site. He's fond of Latin and photography. And he used to teach me some phrases in Turkish. Unfortunately, i lost contact. Last thing i know bout him is he was in the middle of sea something due to his study.

Anyway, thanks to you Mithi, who teaches me those word and particularly the "Carpe Diem" term.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Is The Glass Half Full or Half Empty?


This is a reflection for us. How we perceive on events or objects.
What is our point of view of any situation.
There may be both opportunity and trouble in every situation.
Are we gonna see it as blazes or blessings?
It is just our different point of view.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Once A Midday In A Bus

"How much should i pay?"

It was the first thing i asked to a man who sat beside my seat in a bus. A question that unfolded a brief conversation in bus. Brief yet worthwhile.

After answered my question, the man shook my hand, while saying his name (i didn't hear it unfortunately T_T). I did shake his hand and said my name. Then the conversation flew.
He asked me sort of questions about the place that i lived and my job.
Then he told me things bout himself. He said to me that he's responsible to handle visit in prison.
Indeed, he's a prison guard, yet what he handled is sort of VIP visit (like ministers or chief of department of something)

Later he told me about his life experience. He was a high school graduate. And he could reach his position right now with hard work and determination (hmm..sounds familiar in my application letter :D). And he ever worked as a sailor (kinda reminds me of my father. Yea..he was,too).

"Father was a sailor man
Father was a sailor man
He was strong to the finich
Cause he ate his spinach
Father was a sailor man"

-- rearrangement from Popeye The Sailor Man :D

Back to my conversation with the man i met in bus. He taught me two things. Two important things that should be remind. Particularly in work, and could be implemented in daily life as well. They are "courtesy" and "honesty".
As we live with others, one should has a courtesy or politeness or good manner. And honesty helps us to form bonds of trust in human relationships.

Here i found two good quotes about courtesy and honesty.

“He who sows courtesy reaps friendship, and he who plants kindness gathers love” - Anon.
“Honesty: The best of all the lost arts” - Mark Twain.

"Pardon me Miss, but i have to get out of the bus, cause it is already arrived at my destination. Good day to you and good luck",
said Mr.Sorry-i-don't-know-ur-name while waving me good bye.


* anyone know what "finich" is?

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Friends With Benefits

It was a year ago, when I had alot more free time than now, i found this kind of term. It started with my hobby, surfing the internet just for fun. Search for funny glitter graphics or texts for my friendster account (OMG..it feels like a long long time ago). Then i read something catchy. It was "friends with benefits" or FWB.
At that moment i was so curious, and tried to find out the meaning. I asked to my best buddy -my partner in crime- (miss u alot nggub...), and she told me that friend with benefits is a friend to f**k around with (sounds a bit rude huh?)

Friends with benefits can do things couples can do except without being labeled as a boyfriend and a girlfriend, when you ask if they want to be friends with benefits with you, you both have to agree on what those benefits are, and it doesn't have to contain sex. Kissing, hugging, and holding hands for example. If you both agree on sex, then it's also considered as friends with benefits.

I found many articles from google that related or mention this term. Based on an article i've read, researchers from USA had surveyed undergraduates students about friends with benefits.
Two-thirds of participants said they had been in a FWB relationship, and 36% said they currently were in one. The main advantage of such a relationship was no commitment, yet the disadvantage was the possibility that feelings would develop. Or even it could harm friendship.

Well, it's a survey in USA, and i dunno here in our country, Indonesia. It is obvious that we have different culture and norms. And i post this for the purpose of information. Not in detail, just in outline. And of course, i mean no offense to those who are in FWB, cos it's not our right to judge people.

And now i ask you people, if anyone of you had experienced or currently are in FWB, please share me your opinion. Or if you just read this post and donot have any experience with FWB, i would like to know your opinion too.


* Si hoc legere scis nimium eruditionis habes ^_^

Monday, April 6, 2009

Date with Jenson Button

Well, the title is total lie cos I myself didn't really have a date with Jenson Button, but Kimi Raikkonen (i wish..haha, lol). Last weekend i had a word stuck in my head. It's "date". It started when my friend asked me whether i have a plan for weekend or not. And I surely had no idea for weekend. So I tossed a shout out in my facebook status, "any idea to get me a date this weekend?".
Sounds so desperate huh? But actually, i was not that desperate. Just wanted to have some fun with my facebook status ^.^

As mentioned in wikipedia, dating is any social activity undertaken by, typically, two people with the aim of each assessing the other's suitability as their partner in an intimate relationship or as a spouse. The word refers to the act of meeting and engaging in some mutually agreed upon social activity.
It also means "an appointment" according to thefreewebdictionary dotcom. Well..it's getting technical *sigh*

Anyway..for me, date is just a date. It hasn't to be with another significant one (ok..it's a bonus, ehehehe). I could date my parents, my sibblings,or my friends (same or different gender).
So...any date for me this weekend, eh? ^^

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Do you believe in dreams?

This is not an eat-this-sleeping-pills-and-you-will-have-a-good-dream adv. But I want to ask first. Do you believe in dreams? What are your dreams mean? Were your dream good or bad?


I myself don’t affected much by dreams. As people say, dream is only something occurs in some sleep stages. For me, it is something fun occurs in our sleep. And I want to share about dreams. Certainly, this happens for reason. Though I ain’t dream in every episode, ehm...every sleep I mean, I used to got weird dreams.


When I was a little kid I often had a nightmare, fallen by the sun or being chased by monsters, yeah that are common nightmares. As I grown up, my nightmare doesn’t come very often, maybe just once or twice a year.


Lately, I dreamt about weird things. I ever dreamt a woman loves me and she wants me to be her girlfriend (hello!! I’m still straight). I also dreamt about having love affair with Kelly Purwanto. I am a married woman, and Kelly is my another man, yeah that damn hot Kelly (i wish!! lol). Another weird one is I order someone to make me a semi-naked self-portrait drawing (weird for me, really, but maybe not for others).


But I have certain nice dreams as well. I dreamt of Fabio Grosso, and I hug him, again, again and again :D. I am a huge fans of Grosso for sure. Then I dated David Villa-Silva serially, in my dream. Obviously, I love this kind of dreams and i wish to repeat those dreams. But unluckily good dreams aren’t repeatable.


I wonder, how could we categorized dreams? Which is counted good, bad or weird one?!


In my opinion, bad dream or nightmare is kind of dream that followed with anxiety, fear, or other negative emotions. Of course good dream is the opposite of it. If we are awake from such dream like this one, it usually brings us happy or good feelings. And sometimes if it is cut by a sudden wake up, we are upset cause we still want it more.


So what about weird dream?! This is the toughest one to be categorized. I consider kind of dream in this category is one with strangest thing that will not happen in real world. It could be bizarre settings, freak people, or weird plots. But, people have their own definition for weird things they consider, rite?!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Iqra'! (=to read)

It is one of message in my cell phone that I wrote in draft. It is not a-message-to-send-to-others but it is a kind of message for myself. In other word, this is a motto or a slogan or catchword or whatever it called. I used to repeat this word everyday, verbally or non-verbally as a magic spell (sounds like a wacky-obsessed-Harry-Potter-person, rite?!).


As I have ever read, repeating such spells or words could affect our mindset or our custom. And the effect could be good or bad , it is up to the magic spell of course. That is why I used to repeat the “Iqra’!” word to motivate me to read and read more. And yeah...it works except kinda book entitled “How to choose a good and healthy goat” or something like that...:D


I choose to motivate myself to read more cause reading is very beneficial. It is very obvious, and I guess most of people can state detailed benefits more than I do.


In addition I have two others magic spells, which are “Alive and Kickin” and “Only God can judge me”. Those words aren’t my own words but inspired by others. Yet, these words are pretty effective as magic spells for me. A magic spell to alter myself to be more positive.


So, what about you?! What is your magic spell?!